I’m sorry for the pain i have put you through. I know it was wrong. I’ve tried to make things work, to get over the pain i feel inside. I have tried. But all i can rely on now is drink and blades. But that is no way to live. With a dependency on drink or an addiction to cutting. Its not productive, not good will just result in failure. Like everything else in my life has ended up being. One big fat failure. I have had enough i am so sorry but a life like this is not good and not worth living.This doesnt even make any sense and i am just rambling. Prolonging the time between finishing this and trying again to “top myself”. Its all i feel i am worth. It is all that i am worth.
So its goodbye from me.
